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    Stimulus Opportunity

    M told me one evening this week that she is sometimes brave. She had baked two loaves of two different, new kinds of bread, both of which she planned to take along with us when we would go visiting later.

    “I often regret trying a recipe on other people,” she said, “but I’m doing it again anyway.”

    “If I were a demanding sort of husband,” I told her, “I might insist that you not practice such generosity without first testing the goods on me. But I’m not demanding, so you just do whatever you want.”

    A bit later, I heard her say that she suspected that the loaves had perhaps been under baked. We had an early evening bedtime snack that both confirmed her suspicions and stimulated my sweet tooth mentality.

    Such fortifications by us for the greater good are not only tucked into our little bellies. M and I have shared our contributory spirit beyond ourselves and indeed have sped up the world’s economic recovery as best we can–by borrowing a butt load of money and giving it all to a family we don’t even really know and who are planning to spend all of it on new house construction over the next few months.

    You could call it a privately financed (by us) stimulus package (never mind that the recipients of the money gave us their current primary residence in return).

    But as pleased with ourselves as we are for contributing to our dear nation’s fiscal survival, we know in our inner beings that there remains much more we yet can do, and I hereby–totally altruistically–offer us as Ideal Stimulusees.

    See, in this economic downturn, not spending money–or at least saving it under a mattress instead of investing it in stocks–promises only to perpetuate the downward spiral of worry, unemployment, personal rejection of spendthrift habits, no tax revenue, no jobs for government workers…you’ve already gotten the picture, no doubt.

    Money needs to flow–and it needs to flow through people like us. As I am a member of an only moderately lucrative profession, our few monetary resources and the possibility of an upcoming salary cut make us the Perfect Recipients of stimulus. The current shallowness of our bank account ensures that any money we receive will be spent very quickly, and not on flashiness but on things for our new home that will increase our energy efficiency and conservation as well as domestic food production.

    Deep down, and primarily out of concern for others (well, mostly each other), M and I really, really, really want to contribute.

    So bring on the stimulus!

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    New House

    Sorry, folks, but I didn’t think to take any pictures of the house today–even though I had the camera along just in case I discovered any problems that digital photography might help me solve.

    I met my brother-in-law out at the new homestead to talk shop about some of the looming tasks we’ll need to tackle when the place is ours in reality and not just on paper. In his typical fashion he gave me great insight into the ease of accomplishing drastic-sounding upgrades and replacing my misguided, panicky desperation at suppositions and worst-case scenarios with grounded, succinct, common-sense suggestions.

    Just redo the plumbing for the whole house; I did mine in a day and a half, he said. What do you mean, replace the whole circuit panel? Not necessary–just add a few breakers. And the chimneys? They probably just need cleaned and a little touch up at the top.

    For now the big because-we-want-to remodeling, like moving the kitchen, tearing out a supporting wall, and putting in South-facing windows, will need to wait while we get the groundwork for much else finished up this summer, after which we will have no money for anything besides lentils and an occasional orange soda from the twenty-five-cents machine outside the grocery store.

    If we have time for soda, that is. We will be gardening, too, in the rather majestic space already laid out, there near the grapes and fruit trees and just down from the raspberry bushes.

    The whole time I was there, scouting around, I couldn’t help but feel like I was once again just looking at a place to buy, getting excited about it and yet knowing that it was probably beyond our reach.

    I could hardly believe that it is actually already ours.

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    Novel Ideas

    Recently I’ve often been waking up before the alarm clock radio signals me at 5:30. Around 4:00, or maybe 4:30, my mind will start racing with new house exciting possibilities and depressing scenarios, and that does it for my night of substantive sleep.

    The other morning, though, I managed to do more than doze intermittently, and I dreamed that I was writing down the plot line for a novel. When I woke up, I scurried out to the desk and scavenged the envelope of a letter from the Document Processing Department of the company that manages my IRA.

    They’d written requesting confirmation of some of my personal information–employer, telephone number, net worth, etc. I’d ended up giving them what I could, and even included an estimation of my worth based on a quick draw from the grab basket of monetary asininity. The last time they requested such accounting of my personal value I simply wrote “priceless”; this time I wrote “$10,000.”

    It’s interesting, considering the worth of a person in monetary terms–difficult, rather. In a study of coincidental investigation yesterday I stacked some of N’s blocks to say the word “hard.” When I pivoted the pile of letters, they spelled “uneq.” It must be difficult for employers, these days, having to lay off extra workers, each and every one unique but nonetheless expendable. In my school district, the average money saved when an employee leaves is $52,000. I might be worth more as a layoff option than investment portfolio.

    Assigning worth to people is often a misguided venture not just when it comes to their personal monetary holdings. I recently received an email forward subjected “OBAMA HAS TO BE STOPPED.” It sounded dangerously close to personalizing national issues beyond an intelligently debatable point, so I didn’t read the email (since I do only things involving intelligence). Besides, could Obama really be The Problem? As a former fellow congregant once insisted, it’s Congress–not the president–about whom we need to talk, since Congress controls the purse strings.

    Or maybe we shouldn’t even talk about Congresspeople. One of my former pastors once told me that when parishioners start talking political candidates, he politely steers the conversation to the issues, not people.

    The worth of things, too, sometimes rests in the eye of the beholder–or under the butt, as the case may be:

    Hopefully the eventual issue of my novel’s scribbled conception won’t end up valued as mere butt-worthy type. The envelope beckons from before me on my desk, charged with absorbing both of my previous novel starts as a chapter each and commanded by but a sketchy diagram of an at-best sketchy tale of my quite natural neuroses.

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    Closed

    With one or two of our many strokes of pen at closing today we may have moved up our moving date by thirty days.

    Back when we signed the purchase agreement for our 1.731 acres and (perhaps) 1800’s-era farmhouse with Old Testament verses hanging under the mailbox, the owners asked if they could continue living in the house for sixty days beyond closing free of charge. That was okay with us, and so we wrote up a rental contract and for some reason of what origination I know nothing decided to allow them to stay for a daily fee for up to an additional month beyond the initial sixty days.

    “Does this mean you need us out by May 28?” the man, the soon-to-be minister of a conservative congregation in our neighboring state and the proud father of a very recently born sixth child, emailed at one point. “We’re not sure where we’re going to move to; we may be building a house.”

    “That’s right,” I replied. “We are providing the additional month to allow for your transition. We hope this is helpful.”

    Even then I felt we were doing the world a favor both by giving them ample figuring out time as well as by practically forcing them to get a move on their moving; they seemed to be such mild people that without our gentle prodding their own initiative might have decided to sleep in until next autumn or spring, for all we knew.

    Last night, though, I called him, genuinely concerned that maybe even letting them stay on as renters at all would be in some way violating the terms of our property insurance and bank loans, all of which were to be finalized today at closing.

    “Would it be okay with you if we changed the contract from a ‘rental’ contract to an ‘extended stay’ contract?” I asked him. “It wouldn’t change substantively, but it might be more legally palatable.”

    He was fine with that, so I ventured further and asked if they had any idea if they would be staying beyond the sixty days.

    “We really don’t know, yet,” he said. “We have found some land we want to buy, and we have a builder, and I don’t know if we’ll be able to move in before it’s finished or what. There is a property that we might be able to rent for the time being, and I’m wondering if maybe I’m going to want to be living there so I can help with the house construction.”

    “Whenever you decide to move out, we’ll move right in,” I told him. “We want to honor our commitment to you for the ninety days, but at the same time, we’re eager to move in.”

    That was yesterday.

    Today at closing, after the title company representative mostly successfully suppressed her surprised shock at their response to her explanation of one of the documents (“It means that you have been continuously married….Some people get divorced and then remarried, and that’s okay–” “Well, no, it’s not okay!” he interjected) and quietly accommodated their other concern (“Is this swearing? Can we just affirm?”) by crossing out the offensive language and handwriting in a correction, they took their necessary paperwork–including our “Extended Stay Contract”–and left.

    And we got busy with the loan officer. My signatures and initials looked worse and worse each time I splayed them; I couldn’t help but sigh occasionally, not out of boredom but from the sheer enormity of documentation–which we soon learned included a statement that we intend to move into the property within sixty days.

    I saw a ray of shining hope not lost on M, either. “The sellers would be concerned enough about this sort of thing,” M said, meaning the letter of the law, “that they will probably move out so that we can honor this requirement.”

    I called the man as soon as we got home, and he promised to….er….maybe just said they would….keep that in consideration as they made their decisions.

    I don’t mind that circumstances seem to favor a sooner moving date, which I very, very, very, very much want. I also don’t think that a quick move to near their building site is a bad idea for them.

    But I wouldn’t be too surprised if they suspect us of being manipulative schemers–when in fact we’re not even playing a closed hand.

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    Truck

    Yesterday shopping, we saw the most bizarre pickup–if that’s what it was–ever.

    I was opening our trunk in the no parking zone right outside of the posh grocery store in a glitzy strip mall when from behind me into my periphery vision came what I at first thought was a shiny black roll-back tow truck hauling a shiny black pickup truck. I soon realized that it was all one vehicle, on top a pickup truck, on the bottom a row of big-rig fuel tanks. It circled the parking lot and again rumbled past us as I whooped and hollered for M to look. Its face was a semi tractor’s huge grill; its posterior was a head-height tailgate.

    Its every move defied the economic recession.

    M wondered, “What are the people in that thing thinking? That they’re really cool?”

    Probably, I thought. If it were me, I would feel on top of the world.

    Which I’m not, right now, feeling. My district’s superintendent has taken to emailing cautionary messages to her employees, assuring us of her concern for each and every one of us but warning of necessary salary, benefits, and even staff cuts.

    And we close on our new house on Tuesday!

    I try to make myself feel better by noting profound pieces of wisdom, like, “Whenever one door closes, another opens,” or, “The light you see at the end of the tunnel is the headlamp of a fast-approaching train.” You can see why I’m not really soaring these days.

    Hoping to spark a socialist revolution here on the home front, I responded to the superintendent’s invitation for input from teachers about how the district can save money by writing to her:

    “I’m sure you’ve been receiving countless suggestions about dealing with the budget; please accept my humble contribution to the fray! In a wage-cutting scenario, it makes most equitable sense to me not to make a flat percentage cut for everyone, but instead to make graduated cuts. For example, a person earning $10,000 could receive just a 1% cut, while a person earning $50,000 could receive a 5% cut. The ‘fairness logic’ behind this is that in a flat wage cut scenario of, say, 2%, it is more difficult for a person earning $10,000 to lose $200 (leaving $9,800) than it is for a person earning $50,000 to lose $1,000 (since they still are left with $49,000). Graduated wage cuts allow earners of lesser salaries a little more breathing room for basic necessities without stifling that same breathing room for higher earners.”

    Now, you might think that my previous attempts at attracting Obama’s attention through this blog, roughly the equivalent of peeing into a networked toilet in hopes of shifting the tides of both of the U.S.’s adjacent oceans, would have taught me that my advice is best dispensed in a more fruitful manner than direction towards public leaders. I would be better off, say, just emptying my composting toilet’s contents into a corn patch on the old home place. Nevertheless, I eagerly emailed my wage cutting suggestion to the superintendent, who wrote back rather quickly and without full comprehension of run-on sentences:

    “Thanks for your thoughts, C, we are working diligently to impact people as little as possible. At this time, we await the real numbers for our revenue from the state to be able to put our budget together. Have a good day.”

    A good day full of worry, perhaps, about vague possibilities and hypothetical run-throughs and trying to convince myself that “the only thing we have to fear is fear itself.”

    On our shopping trip yesterday, less than an hour before we saw the ludicrous truck, N did some of her own cruising around her parking lot of clothing store shiny floors, jarring to a halt whenever she approached the reflections of lights, momentarily afraid of falling through the apparently vanished tile.

    But only momentarily.

    Cool.

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    Indecision

    Since M has begun teaching two nights a week and is in a choir a third, I have begun taking care of N to a greater degree. For the past two nights she has been cheerful almost even when actually going down for the night; tonight she cried a bit more than I expected, but her protests were still rather minimal.

    This video is from Monday, when she couldn’t quite make up her mind about what she wanted to do: